when in face with the complexity of life
as the world continues to revolve around its axis,
changing its position, angle with respect to the sun.
and so are the daily incidences.

looking down at the flat(round?) ground.
to your amazement,
you actually belong to this dynamic of actions in process.
failure to grasp hold of the situation may cause you to lose control.
perception, interaction, reaction with maybe a tinge of deception.
how hard it is to live with the changes.

stop, and look again.
there may just be more than one turning point within one curve
your life.
when i came to realise it.
goodnight.







dear mummy,
i know you're getting tired as the years go by.
when i thought life was getting tough for me,
i negligently took your responsibility to care, for granted.

watching you surf the web in search for alternatives for brother.
watching you handling household chores even after work.
watching you worry for me when i am not home.
watching you sit down in front of the tebe. finally.
watching you being strong and holding on in times of need.
watching you shed tears late at night after being strong.

until we realised no one is indispensable in this world.
let's muster our courage and say hi to this new black swan.
because in life be it good or bad,
everything would become history.
when parental is starting to make sense to me.
dear mummy, I Love You.







over you.
thank you.


oh, was chatting with yishuang at her house today.
kind of miss her and the times we had at iras.
it was nonsense, seriously crap.
but fun!

she made my day today in case she was unaware of that, ha.
anyway, its gonna be a long journey ahead.
but i'll just have to hang on till how far i can achieve.

same to all my loved ones :)







if only life was just as straight-forward.

this really sets me thinking,
that each time you look at someone in the eye,
talk to him/her (probably crack a joke or talk about your daily life),
he/she reciprocates (laughs at your silliness or expresses interest in your not-so-interesting life)
what on earth is running through the latter's mind.
hey there girl, your ranting does really not interest me, you see.


growing up did not seem to be as easy for me.
and sad to say, i am way behind track in face of the complexity of life.
life resembles that of utopia if we choose to remain in our comfort zone.
but my evasiveness of the real world would soon rip me apart
when in face of the societal world.


to top it up,
indecisiveness would land one stranded in some awkward situation.
not only affecting the former,
but also implicating others at the same time.
its perfectly fine if you're still holding on to that string of hope or whatever,
but please have some regard for the people around you.
and for god's sake, choose your string.


ah, this is dissing me.
immediate(or maybe urgent) actions are required.
prolongation leads you to nowhere.


but sad to say,
life is filled with twists & turns and people enjoy the thrill of it.
life is like a roller-coaster,
if you can't escape it, then enjoy it.
(quote edited from dear cousin's life quote) *winks*


reader's discretion:
my sudden urge to blog does not imply anything in particular.
this is just a wake up call for the owner of this website.







when every guy gets smitten over this elegant lady after watching Red Cliff,




i got attracted by him.



oh man,
ZHU GE LIANG rocks la!
yeah, you know what i mean. ^_^







sometimes i wonder if people regret
the things that they do,
the decisions they have made in ife.

if time was like water,
being able to freeze or melt as and when,
to revert back to any of its former.
would anyone of us accede history to repeat itself?
or would we just let ice melt,
and let water flow on..


if time was really like water,
at which point of time would we freeze the moment?
or could have external factors destroyed it all,
thus hindering this frozen ice.


if time was really like water,
it would continue flowing even if it encounters an obstacle.
cliche thou, but time and tide waits for no man.
tide, water, man, me.


and sometimes, i wonder
i really wonder if people regret the things that they have done in life.







Mode of communication: SMS
Party 1: Mother
Party 2: Me

------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Mother: News out. 6 March result
Me: I know.

Mother: Good luck. Whatever is your result just come back first.
Me: No la, I won't commit suicide can.

Mother: NTU lecturer stab by engineering student
Me: Ya, not bad idea maybe I will consider that.

Mother: Student jump down from engineering block and die
Me: I said already, I won't commit suicide. but stab teacher hard to say, ha!

Mother: no replies.


anyways, good luck to all my friends out there.
let's not think about it alright,
simply because it is ALREADY HERE AND CANNOT BE CHANGED.
let's face the music and put a halt to self-denial.
we will do this hand-in-hand. love all.







the new craze in the house.
swimming.

basically my mother is trying to recollect her good YOUNG days.
where she could swim gracefully like some swan?
but sadly, this swan does not seem to be able to trap water.

we kept switching from the children pool to adult pool
and i dunno why also.
so we ended up looking like 2sua gus.
but still, it was worth the trip to spend some time with her (:

so there is this new schedule of swimming once a week with mum.
this is so not gonna last la. ha!

the swimming white tiger below reminds me of zorro somehow.
oh and did you know that zorro likes to swim on the floor for us to see?
acting like one LITTLE INNOCENT doggie.
ok xy, stop laughing at my deardear.
tsk! enjoy.




c'mon zorro, show them your classic smile!








It's not easy to see a relationship end
but it's even harder when you don't know why it did.

woo~
been doing many other stuff (other than onlining)
or maybe i should say
i have been spending most of the time staying at home being some 宅女
BUT, at least i found a job and proud to say,
i have worked for ONE month!


had some 2e5 gatherings and i really dare say
old times are the premium times!

gathering no1.


gathering no2.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RACHEL AND YONGZHI on 6th february!

and we took this cranky photo which i found damn cute.
see, even yongzhi is acting cute!

anyways, i love 2e5 la!


= LOVE!

oh if anyone noticed,
whatever pictures taken of me you do not get to see my teeth.
yes, i am teekee no2. (metal teeth in hokkien)
one fine day, i will smile the brightest smile with teekee no1.
and show you guys my TEEKEE alright!


i can't believe this is actually happening.







happy birthday, dear boyfriend!
you know i love you always and will support you for my whole life.



from your love,
JAYzee.







[edited]

if i am gonna quit this next job of mine,
我不姓谢。
我姓周。:X


jiazhi, you suck! :(







All I want for Christmas is You - Mariah Carey



anytime, anywhere, unforgotten.
MERRY CHRISTMAS.







ok so imma gonna post about my trip to kl.








just because i am female.
just because you claim he is easier to handle.
just because you think i am matured enough to understand myself.
just because he opens up more than i do.
just because you cannot accept my life and the people around me.

i guess i would be treated even worse if my results were like shit.
i guess you were never proud of me.
i guess no one would ever understand how this sucks.

i hope you would notice what i have done.
i hope you would slow down and take a look at me.
i hope to have another chance.

things do not always appear as what it seems to be on the surface.
please, listen to what i do not say.







No one can make you feel inferior without your consent
- Eleanor Roosevelt


I do not know if this is the common consensus.
somehow there is this sense of inferiority within each and everyone.
the kind of sentiment which makes us feel
the gush of degradation flowing through us.

from time to time, we would recall this sense of discredibality
and at that point of time when
we feel like the whole world cant hear one's laments,
we would start finding solutions to suppress it.

many ways as there is.

one may choose to accept it.
but, you may not be very happy right now.

one may choose not to face it
finding means & ways to shun the awkward situation that exposes one
no matter how one meanders, we would still hit a rock. tsk!

one may try to blend in by finding their jigsaw to form a big picture.
to be one of the common crowd.
you would either end up finding a new interest
or on the flipside of the coin,
it is simply not your cup of tea.

one may also choose to divert the situation and focus on their forte.
and so they over-indulge subconsciously.
or even accompanied with some sacrifices.
in the process, that would outweight their stigma
till the extend whereby it forms part of your personality.
be it good or bad, overindulgence? uh uh.


everyone enjoys being in his/her comfort zone.
be it which way, it is deifnitely not the way out.
so let us tackle the root of the problem.
inferiority.
and then, refer to the quote.

*someone gives you a nudge*
but we are human leh, can adopt the quote so easily meh?

so now, it is up to one to find the sense of confidence
rather then constantly identifying the weaknesses,
find out that shining glow within our souls.

so try ok, this post is for everyone yes.
don't shun.

jiazhi.

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